Not Too Old

I’ve heard that for the last few months.

“You aren’t too old.”

And, in all reality, I’m not that old.

I’m 29. I’ll be 30 just a few weeks before Christmas. I have 8 months left in my 20s and I’m slightly nervous scared about that.

Because 30 is, well, 30.

It’s the beginning of a new decade in my life. And a new chapter, too.

It’s scary. I can’t go back and I can’t stay where I’m at. I have to move forward.

And in moving forward, I’m praying that the road I’m on is moving me closer to Jesus and who God is calling me to be.

A few days ago, I read this blog post and I absolutely believe that God meant for me to read it now.

Part of my fear of leaving my 20s and entering my 30s is that I feel like I haven’t accomplished much of what I desire to do in my life time. I’m beginning to fear that time is running out on me. Until I read that post and God brought to mind Abraham and Sarah.

Let’s face it, if they can have a child at the ages of 90 and 100, then I certainly still have more than enough time to fulfill the desires of my heart.

Right?

Right?

In all seriousness, though, the world puts a lot of emphasis on age. And, even in today’s world, if a woman isn’t married or doesn’t have a boyfriend, isn’t living on her own and have a great job/career, people (especially family) wonder if something is wrong with you. Well, at least I get the “so when are you getting married” at family functions. Luckily for me my sister is also single so I’m not the only one.

So what about Sarah? I can only imagine how she felt. Actually, I probably have an idea. Because when all of her friends were having children, she could not. She was barren and, I think, she almost became bitter because of it.

Let’s face it, when everyone around you is getting what you want or feel you deserve, you get a little angry. That anger can fester and turn bitter.

But it wasn’t the right time. It wasn’t God’s timing for her to have a child. It wasn’t until after Abram became Abraham and Sarai to Sarah; and they had obeyed God and had faith in Him that He could deliver what He promised that she finally had a son. In. God’s timing.

So maybe you’ve dreamt of being a writer or traveling the world or getting married and having a family. Just because it hasn’t happened yet doesn’t mean it still can’t. I still have lots of dreams that I haven’t fulfilled. Maybe I’m not supposed to fulfill all of them but I know one thing is for sure:

I’m no longer going to just sit around and wait for it to happen. If I do that nothing will ever get done. If I’ve only learned one thing in the last few months, it’s that if I have a dream or a desire to do something and I’ve prayed about it and step out in faith, whether I fail or succeed, as long as I give my all to it, God will honor that. If it isn’t right, He’ll correct me, sure. He wouldn’t be the good Father that He is if He didn’t.

So, here’s a couple of questions for you:

  1. Do you have a dream/desire that has yet to be fulfilled?
  2. Do you believe that you are too old to fulfill that dream?

A Million Miles

Have you read A Million Miles in a Thousand Years by Don Miller yet? I have but I think I was a little late to the party since by the time I’d read it, it had been out for a while. However, I have to say that it’s a book that I will be reading over and over again.

Today, the paperback is coming out. And if you head over to Don Miller’s blog, he’s giving away some books. Here is a little video he’s posted about the book.

Hope everyone had a great weekend. I spent it with a wonderful family. 🙂 I’ll post more about it (and some pictures) tonight or tomorrow.

Happy Monday!

OneWord 2011: Update

So I’ve sort of neglected the blog as of late.

In the past I would have said I’ve already failed at keeping up with my One Word for 2011. But I haven’t given up just yet.

I chose “focus” as my One Word.

Because I wanted to focus more on God, on the here and now.

I read One Thousand Gifts recently and loved it. Have you read it yet? I highly recommend that you do. I might just have to read it again soon because I don’t think it all sank in. But one thing that I did come away with was this: in order to give thanks, there must be a focus on the present. That is the only way we can give thanks for the everyday.

I haven’t been as diligent about keeping up with my One Word as I hoped but there’s still time. And I’m realizing that by creating focus in my life doesn’t mean that I can take on more but that I will be more intentional about what I am already doing so that I can give my all to that moment.

I can give my full attention to my God, my family, my friends when I am with them. When I am working – whether it is at the law office or photographing a wedding – I am fully there and giving my all to it. I will truly be able to do my job as unto the Lord.

And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the reward of the inheritance; for you serve the Lord Christ. {Colossians 3:23,24}

And when I am home I can focus on what my Spirit truly desires – to commune with the Lord through reading and studying His Word.

So I’m not giving up. Not yet. (I’m too stubborn for that.) I’ll just keep going, making sure to focus on where I am, who I’m with and what I’m doing.